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Poster: skuzzlebutt Date: Apr 2, 2010 4:11pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: The Burden of Being Jerry

Most or the regulars here are familiar with this sad narrative, but for those who haven't read it, "Dark Star" is Exhibit A in supporting the case that for both Jerry and the band, it was a gradual slide downhill beginning with his introduction to Persian around '77-78. Whether you like the early-mid 80s or not, no one who was there can forget the ghastly visual of a pasty, horribly bloated Jerry starring straight down the whole night, shutting out the rest of the Dead as well as thousands of fans. There were some brief signs of life at the end of the decade as he went through a genuine post-coma attempt at cleaning up, then a final, accelerated decline 1992-95 as the years of abuse began causing his body to fail him across the board, up to and including his ability to play his instrument.

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Poster: dead-head_Monte Date: Apr 3, 2010 10:10am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: The Burden of Being Jerry

I would say the turning point comes when Garcia is given what he is told is a very pure form of opium -- which turns out to be Persian heroin. And he likes it. He really likes it. Garcia didn't do anything moderately. -- In Gans' article, it says Jer smoked it, and he never shot-up the dope.

I shot-up heroin twice when I was 21. Luckily, I had pretty bad experiences both times. The 1st time was with 2 friends. One of them was my hippie neighbor. He was a pretty cool guy. He introduced me to his friend. I was a just a hippie punk kid. I was being social with them, and not into the heroin scene at all. At first, I thought these guys were cool.

We shoot up some dope. Next thing I know, both these part-time junkies stole the rest of the smack. They shoot that up while I was puking, until the dope is all gone. I paid for all the dope upfront. I couldn't believe how they could do that to a friend. I felt betrayed.

2nd time was with my neighbor again. This was several months later. He had called some heroin-chick friends of his in NYC, where he was from. He asked them to come to NJ to visit him. They brought some junk with them because he begged them to. He called me up and asked me to come to his place. He told me he had cute girls there. We shoot up the dope, and then we all get laid. It wasn't that great, believe me. The needle must of had a small burr on it. For a day or two after that, I had some nasty swelling in my arm at the injection site. I was pretty pissed off about that. I learned first hand how disgusting the heroin culture gets.

In my view, the heroin lifestyle really sucks badly. I had really bad experiences. I never wanted to touch the stuff, before or after that. These 2 experiences surely cemented my hatred for heroin.

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Poster: skuzzlebutt Date: Apr 3, 2010 3:26pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: The Burden of Being Jerry

That's one line I never crossed. I knew some folks who did, and like you I didn't like what it did to their behavior.



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Poster: William Tell Date: Apr 5, 2010 2:11pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: The Burden of Being Jerry

This is in NO way a defense of the whole scene, and of course, the only advice I have is DON'T, period...the scene is almost always BAD.

But, in simple defense of the logic of WHY it is so compelling, why it is so enticing, there is simply not a drug like an opiate to the human brain. Period #2.

It is why morphine on the battlefield can make you feel sooo good. And under many other "legit" circumstances...which I have a great deal of experience with, unfortunately (end of life, pain mge, etc., etc.).

Nonetheless, I tell all as one that has experienced all of these, no matter how good it feels (usu the first time--unfortunately, you are the exception, Monte--if you get my drift), stay away, cause the scene will kill you...Period # 3.

You want to reserve it for when it is absolutely necessary, and with luck, that time may never come.

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Poster: groovernut Date: Apr 5, 2010 10:17am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: The Burden of Being Jerry

Dude, nasty story.... your wise to have stopped then.
I have seen enough, up to death so heroine is not on my list of drugs I want to "do".